(song) kita main tarik tali, malu mau meluahkan...

Setelah 3 minggu 2 hari perkenalan kami:

My dearest says:

HI..

**me** says:

YE DEAR?

My dearest says:

U SUKA KER KALO I ARI DKYT GAN U AE?

**me** says:

MESTILAH

My dearest says:

KALO GITU KITA NIKAH JER LH..

**me** says:

(jap.. sy terngah tergamam...)

My dearest says:

naper plk...tergamam ae?

**me** says:

(jap.. sy masih lagi tergamam, perh.. xtao nk ckp ape)

My dearest says:

saja jer lh..

**me** says:

phuh!!!

My dearest says:

kita enjoi dulu..

puas kn lg best

**me** says:

(jap.. sy masih tergamam lagi... apelah **me** nih!!!)

My dearest says:

naper tergamam plk ni,,ala mcm bdk2 lh u ni...x der pe pon yg berlaku

**me** says:

LAA... SUKE ATI I LAH

u.. tetiba i mcm sakit.. cam nk demam!! U PUNYE PASAL!!

My dearest says:

pasal pa syg..

**me** says:

pasal u tye soklan cepu platinum tadik tuhh!!!

My dearest says:

dh lh x nk fikir kn perkara to lg..

lupakn jer lh...

**sori atas gangguan kesalahan ejaan**

The usual me (last-minute person)

Can i put the same image of a fatherly figured person scolding most probably his daughter?
I think I should::


Here's the story:
My first class this semester was on 24h and 25th July. I've done all my research for me to prepare for my assignments.

First week goes unnoticed

....

It's already the 2nd week since my first class - wakeyy wakeyy

....

ooo...new schedule has started to fill in the blanks

....

Alamak, forth week already!! Better check the LMS (Learning Management System)



Fuhh, luckily the deadline is the next week. Quite a surprise, usually we're only given 4 weeks to complete~~

....

....

Alamak, terawihlah.. once a year only

....

Alamak, I need to submit EVERYTHING by 28th and deadline is not even midnight, it's afternoon <28th>

....

@_@ me taking leave just to complete the assignments


@_@

....

28th August 11.52am - all has been submitted


I must say that I'm very proud of myself!!!!

JUST WAIT TILL THE RESULTS ARE OUT, XADDYA????

Adakah ini...

Silu dan segan melihat blog sendiri. Asalnya, blog ini bertujuan untuk si penulis meluahkan hati dan perasaan yang kebiasaannya menjadi tempat untuk melepaskan geram atau tanda protes kepada pelbagai isu. Tetapi, semenjak kebelakangan ini, isi-isi yang terkandung di dalam blog si penulis ini lebih menjurus kepada urusan hati. Secara jujur, si penulis masih cuba untuk mengawal situasi supaya si penulis tidak akan rasa teramat sakit sekiranya perkara-perkara yang dirancang tergelincir daripada landasan perancangan mereka.

Terciptanya blog ini apabila si penulis terlihat profil kawannya di Facebook yang penuh dengan promosi terhadap blognya. Memandangkan kawannya itu memang sudah terbukti bakatnya menulis dalam bahasa Inggeris, sudah pasti si penulis ini tiada pilihan melainkan sentiasa menjenguk; menyinggah blog tersebut. Seperti yang dijangka, seluruh blognya dipenuhi dengan isi kandungan yang berpaksikan alam percintaannya bersama jejaka yang boleh dikatakan teramat beruntung di dunia. Apa tidaknya, selain daripada bahasa bunga-bunga yang digunakan sebagai cara untuk membuktikan ketulusan cinta dan kemurnian hatinya, kawannya itu sekali pandang seperti minah saleh; cantik dan comel... Lalu, si penulis telapun menjadi pembaca setia blog tersebut hinggalah ke hari ini.

Baca dan baca lagi, ilham si penulis mula mencurah-curah di kepala. Lalu, terbitlah atau lahirlah blog ini. Namun, semestinya si penulis tidak menggunakan subjek cinta sebagai subjek utama atas dasar yang sangat jelas bahawa si penulis masih berstatus solo. Jadi, mulalah perjalanan penulisan si penulis tentang isu-isu semasa dan isu-isu yang berkaitan dengan diri penulis.

Namun, sejak kebelakangan ini, episod atau jalan cerita si penulis sudah berubah. Ah, si penulis sudah pasti menyalahkan pengaruh kawannya kerana membangkitkan banyak idea berkaitan soal hati ini - pasti.

Kadang-kadang, si penulis berfikir; mungkin segala luahan ini adalah terlalu awal apabila mengambil kira tempoh pengenalan yang masih berusia kurang sebulan. Tetapi, si penulis tidak pernah merasai dirinya amat dihormati sebagai seorang wanita. Lalu, s penulis agak ghairah untuk menjadikan blog ini sebagai sarang tempat luahan segala perasaan.Kadang-kadang si penulis berfikir; apa istimewanya si penulis berbanding wanita-wanita lain di luar sana sehingga diberikan layanan yang sungguh istimewa sebegitu?

Kadang-kadang si penulis bersyukur dengan segala dugaan yang dihadapi kedua-dua pihak. Jadi,perkara-perkara tersebut tidaklah membuatkan si lelaki tersebut menjadi lelaki paling sempurna yang total di dunia. Namun, kerana itulah, si penulis banyak berfikir, kerana selalu terdapat percanggahan antara hati dan logik.

Gerun, seram, takut, ngeri untuk si penulis membiarkan hatinya ditawan dan kemudian dihempas begitu sahaja-pengalaman mendewasakan diri. Pernah dulu, si penulis berkata; status 'hanya-kawan' adalah darjat tertinggi dalam hubungan persahabatan. Ini kerana, pada tahap ini, akan timbul rasa sayang dan pada masa yang sama, tidak akan timbul rasa cemburu, malahan kita akan bahagia apabila si sahabat tadi bersama dengan orang lain. Sebaliknya, jika dinaiktarafkan status itu kepada 'pasangan kekasih', rasa cemburu mula ada, rasa ingin mengawal pasangan mula timbul dan rasa berhaknya sepenuh perhatian diberikan oleh pasangan mula terasa. Bukankah secara logiknya, 'hanya-kawan' lebih baik?

Tetapi, mengapa atau apa logiknya hati kita memilih status yang dinaiktaraf berbanding status 'hanya-kawan'? Mungkin, ianya atas dasar ingin memiliki dan dimiliki - ego dan pentingkan diri sendiri. Lumrah kehidupan.

Berbalik kepada cerita si penulis. Tidak ada lagi yang perlu ditulis penulis. Si penulis hanya perlu berdoa supaya dimudahkan segala urusan duniawi yang penuh cabaran ini sambil dilimpahi dengan rahmay-Nya dan hidayah-Nya.

NEW LEAF

Today (16th August 2010) marks my first day here. So far things have been so good. The pros:

1. It's quieter now
2. It looks like a real office (finally - after for almost 2 years)
3. Good training
4. owh.. and the PC is nicer (and wider too :-) )

Nuff said for now.

See my new gadget above???

Isn't it nice or what???

My Heart pt II

***Quoted from 'his' text***

"Tiada yang dapat menolak takdir Allah kecuali berdoa pada-Ku, ia akan akan buka hati untuk berubah pada-Ku, sebab Aku memberi rezeki, kejayaan, jodoh dan ketenangan untuk beriman dan bertaqwa"

***Unquote***

(terdapat kesalahan bahasa di naskhah asal.. tapi above is roughly what it is, at least~~)

My Heart

I am not used to post this kind of genre in here (maybe in my other blog previously, this was the subject chosen).

Love...

I will not exaggerate on this as I'm still puzzled with what I'm feeling right now. But what i can say here is that my heart is singing, humming... I'm feeling something over there which i'm still protecting it in order not to let anybody's in at the moment.

The history
I must say that the previous chapter has made its finale for more than a year now. But the experience that I had gone through has made me think more than twice before I could decide to whether or not start a new chapter. That experience was creepy i'd must say, coz, i had never gone through with such experience before. Hence, that has slowing down the process of me finding my other half.

Though I'd must say that he has been kicked out from my heart right after a week of my grievance period, fearing of the possibility of experiencing the same kind of 'experience' has made me to come to a decision that living as a single person is far more enjoyable with the advantage of the opportunity to mingling around. So, that's why, I'm still a proud single. But...

The meet-and-greet
I didn't feel any mushy-mushy feelings at first - just like i was saying, I protect myself from having such feeling. But, he's pushing it over and over again, till the pinky heart has opened it's door (though not fully open - remember, it's still under protect) and forcing him to be in little by little (however, the process is in fast-pace though)

The positiveness
I'd guess he got more than what I'm demanding from a guy. Those four criterias that I've been asking from God long time ago (i'd must say long time ago, as I've not been a religously prayer for quite some time which I'm still wondering why). Ok, enough~~

The negativeness
I'm still having fear of repeating the same experience. I'm not sure whether God has given His guidance, His hint...
Another thing is his laugh, of course which I've chosen not to elaborate further on that - it's not like I'm perfect either.

----

I'm feeling all of the above, today.
Ya Allah, I know that I've forgotten You for so long. But, Your servant here is still asking and praying for your guidance and hidayah.

On last note, if this turns out to be my happiness, I hope that this is the best for my mum as she deserves the happiness of the world~~.

Is life fair? (as found in NST)

I think this is good (extracted from NST), http://www.nst.com.my/

(sorry haven't finished reading through the whole article as I'm at my office and am not supposedly doing this kinda thing)

Is life fair?



NST - Aug 5, 2010


MANY have complained that life is not fair at all. Some may be too busy to think about this but it is time for most of us whiners to start looking at this from a different perspective - how unfair could life be after all?

Man, with his greed and materialistic views, has often been blinded to the feelings of gratitude and contentment, mainly because he is often lamenting about the problems he faces.

* If you were to list these it would take the form of:

- Unsightly acne (it's the end of the world!)

- Excessive body tissue

- Annoying idiosyncrasies

- Weird facial expressions (I can't smile the right way)

- Awkward body postures (body parts protruding at the wrong places)

These are perhaps just a minute fraction of the common "problems" most of us teens are lamenting about, too. Don't you agree that they make us feel like we're the most miserable lot in the whole wide world?

* Sadly, the adults would think otherwise. For them, nothing is the end of the world except:

- Global economic crisis

- A dented car (it's only a year old... my baby!)

- Exposed extramarital affairs

- Sudden increase in publicity from eye-boggling self-portraits

- White/grey hair

Although we can claim that many of us are stuck with incoherent situations or struck with unfortunate happenings, have we looked at the big picture? How about taking a look at our African comrades?

* Let's look at the problems they face right now:

- No food

- No drinks

- No car

- No pets

- No clothes

- No phones

- No home

- No electronic gadgets

- No bodily fats (at all)

- Barely distinguishable body shapes

- Extreme hunger

My friends, what were the "problems" we were lamenting about again?

By Fan Ray Aun, 16,

Kuala Lumpur

4D, TOTO, NOMBOR EKOR <- haram, tapi~~~~

hmm.. first of all, sorry pada diri sendiri sebab dah lama tak post any new updates.

hmm.. (lagik??) tadi i pergi rumah my mak ngah for just one reason, nak menjenguk my anak saudara (they said anak kepada sepupu is called anak saudara, so, she (Akila) I supposed; is my anak saudara, and as creepy as it sounds; I've got many anak saudara already, and it's actually creeps me out!!)

Ok, I dah lari topik. Let me start this all over again,,

Hmm.. (get over it!) tadi i pergi rumah my mak ngah for just one reason, nak menjenguk my anak saudara. Then, turned out mereka ke Kota Tinggi. So cuma ada Mak Ngah and Pak Ngah and Sharil. Got nothing to do for me except for mengunyah 'jempang-jemput' jagung (which was really good, by the way); so I pun selak menyelaklah Metro Ahad yang ada di meja itu.

As usual, Harian Metro and Metro Ahad - nilai komersil mereka (betul x spelling commercial nih??) ialah cerita2 18sx. But, that's not what I'm going to talk about here. Masalahnya, selak punya selak, sampailah I ke section sukan (which usually I just stopped there and called it a day, already). Selak dan selak lagi, there it goes.. DUA PAGE PENUH - full of results of 4D, promotion SMS to register 4D and apa2 yang sangat2 sewaktu dengannya.

I mean, if I'm not mistaken, tak ramai golongan bukan Islam baca HM or MA. Ok, I'm trying not to be skeptical here. Let's say lah, orang dekat Sabah and Sarawak, yang mungkin boleh dikatakan 'nampak macam melayu, tapi agama tidak semestinya Islam" - merekakah yang mendominasi menjadi pembaca utama HM dan MA??

Well, actually, skeptical or not, rasanya it is already obviously obvious yang pembaca HM and MA majoritinya adalah ---- ok, don't be judgmental, here are the facts:

Wikipedia said (about Metro Ahad)

Harian Metro merupakan sebuah akhbar bahasa Melayu terbitan Kumpulan NSTP.

Metro Ahad merupakan akhbar yang kedua tertinggi pembacanya di Malaysia. Jumlah edarannya ialah sebanyak 263,649 naskhah sehari (berdasarkan kepada data yang dikeluarkan oleh Audit Bereau Circulation atau ringkasnya ABC, bagi tempoh 1 Julai 2005 - 30 Jun 2006) dan dibaca oleh seramai 2,375,000 pembaca sehari (berdasarkan data yang dikeluarkan oleh Media Atlas Malaysia bagi tempoh suku ke-3 bagi 2005 hingga suku ke-3 bagi 2006). Ia merupakan edisi hari Ahad bagi akhbar Harian Metro.

Wiki cakap lagi:

Urutan Berdasarkan Jumlah Pembaca

Kedudukan	Nama Akhbar	Bahasa	Jumlah Edaran Sehari	Jumlah Pembaca
1	Mingguan Malaysia	Bahasa Melayu	483,240	2,488,000
2	Metro Ahad	Bahasa Melayu	263,649	2,375,000
3	Berita Minggu	Bahasa Melayu	333,334	2,329,000
4	Harian Metro	Bahasa Melayu	249,575	2,077,000
5	Berita Harian	Bahasa Melayu	203,704	1,960,000
6	Utusan Malaysia	Bahasa Melayu	213,445	1,643,000
7	Sunday Star	Bahasa Inggeris	230,964	1,491,000
8	The Star	Bahasa Inggeris	310,008	1,456,000
9	Sin Chew Jit Poh	Bahasa Mandarin	346,895	1,238,000
10	China Press	Bahasa Mandarin	227,270	778,000

MalaysiaKini said:

Tabloid Melayu kian popular, harian merosot

Dalam segmen akhbar mingguan pula, edaran Kosmo Ahad mencatat kenaikan tertinggi sebanyak 8 peratus kepada 130,375 naskhah tahun lalu, diikuti Metro Ahad dengan purata edaran sebanyak 386,795 naskhah tahun ini - meningkat 6 peratus.

"Ia menunjukkan pembaca Melayu membeli lebih banyak akhbar disebabkan pengangguran (untuk cari kerja) dan mengurangkan perbelanjaan untuk kandungan hiburan," katanya.

Sorry, I got limited time to search for the survey results yang directly points to percentage of pembaca mengikut agama atau bangsa. But, according to both facts above, it’s quite obvious kot, pembaca HM and MA is mostly Malay yang beragama Islam…

So, let’s assume that MY judgment is correct, so, what’s up with the results of 4D in their prints?? Ok, me being skeptical yet again saying that rasanya dia keluarkan result toto, nombor ekor tu on daily basis kot??

Yang jelasnya, kerja Marketing di HM and MA ni senang bangatt nihh – Put front page tu tajuk2 yang mem’beransang’kan, segmen tanya some ustaz or ustazah (well, sounds like lean to isu agama lah, but turns out isu KELAUT!!) then, cerita gosip2 artis2 melayu yang I’m not sure for what reason selalunya cerita tu are missing something – the name of the artist!! And of course, menyediakan result toto so that penjudi2 ni tak payah membeli daripada mereka yang menjual result2 tu di tepi jalan yang berharga 20sen kot…Voila!! Ramailah makcik pakcik, malah budak2 sekolah aged 12 to 17 pergi ke kedai dan membeli bahan2 berunsur lucah dan haram ni (bukan senang nak dapatkan maklumat sebegitu secara senang dan mudah; dan MURAH! Ya.. internet ada.. tapi, cara olskool ok what??!!)

So, inilah luahan hati I yang actually dah lama terpendam. Especially isu2 lucah yang disediakan. Tapi malas nak ulas lebih lanjut tentang itu kerana mungkin atas dasar, SAYA BUKAN PEMBACA SETIA MEREKA!!

Acknowledgement to www.pagi.com for the news extracted from MalaysiaKini, sebab I don’t actually subscribe to MalaysiaKini, FYI because..

I got better things to do, which is pergi Econsave hari2 just to grab a free copy of The Sun, SETTLED!!

Owh, one more thing – me – pembaca setia The Sun, and once in a while adalah juga baca The Star and NST – I admit those prints are in English, bukan nak berlagak tapi it is as per advised by my tutor as one of the way for us to improve our English.

And, though I admit dekat dalam paper2 tu memang ada banyak iklan minuman keras, tapi, it seems quite ok and better than HM and MA ada iklan pasal TOTO!!

~~Me, skeptical as usual

Disclaimer: Posting ini bukannya nak mempromosi paper yang ini over yang itu. It’s just that sangatlah baik jika paper itu improve the contains of their papers so that pembaca di Malaysia ini adalah pembaca – dan pembaca bacaan yang bermanfaat, itu saja, and I’m not trying to be a racist here, it’s just that the issue is about halal haram and most Malays are Muslims, tu je~~